yesterday, today, or tomorrow?

hello world!

While driving this morning and soaking in the glorious sun, I smelled something amazing.. asphalt! or tar, or whatever its called when they re-pave parking lots. I even posted on my facebook how amazing I think it smells! The smell reminds me of summer, yes, but more so, it reminds me of home. I was racking my brain on why every summer this distinct smell reminded me of LA.. and it clicked today. It was my old school. I went to a small private school in Gardena, CA and when they would re-do the parking lot, that’s what it smelled like.. I remember church events, and carnivals, and walking to school. I remember there was a dairy freeze (if I remember the name correctly) and my friends and I would go there after school for now and later candy.. amazing I tell you..

Anyway.. bringing us back to 2011.. last night I watched the season finale of Glee (I know some of you were waiting for this connection) and as much as I love singing and dancing on a daily basis.. especially at work and when there’s clapping involved.. I really love this show and how, once again, it brings me back to my childhood. I moved right before high school to a lovely little town in NH. through jr. high and the 4 glorious years of high school, I sang in choir. Mind you, I was more of a Birttany in class rather than a Rachel, but all the same, we had shows, traveled for performances (we sang at Epcot one year) and even had an adjudication in NY.. we saw Miss Saigon and every thing while in the city. After high school, I had a small stint in an acapella choir in college, but after a few months, decided to focus more on volleyball (yah I did that too.. im from SoCal, what did you expect?!) and classes. Thinking about it now.. I probably never should have dropped choir. I could have been on Glee myself, as the token half-asian-volleyball-playing-alto!

Hahaha we can all dream, of course, but I guess my point in all of this is: One, my mind wanders wildly during the day (because seriously, I was thinking these things all morning in the sunlight) and Two, it’s funny how so many things.. even something as little as a parking lot.. can trigger fabulous memories from the past. Everything we see and experience reminds us of where we came from. and it’s important to listen to that sense. It’s easy to get lost in all that is in front of us right now. I know this from experience, mainly because I feel like thats where i am now. A little lost. I have forgotten that dreams are meant to be followed not left behind.

So I guess I feel the need to remind everyone, and myself, that where we come from and what we have done, has brought us to where we are now. And where we are now, with the importance of where we came from, opens us up to where and what we want to be tomorrow..

till my next glee moment..

my first blog. ever.

note: this is my very first blog, ever. so i apologize in advance if it doesnt make sense. or if it says too much!
“do one thing every day that scares you” – eleanor roosevelt.
blogging is pretty scary. people out there, reading your thoughts and ideas. being able to manipulate those thoughts and ideas. and even taking them out of context. eek!
but a lovely friend of mine recently gave me this scary challenge as a start to once again live free, and follow my dreams. and that, quite frankly, is also very scary.
so here i challenge all of you.. yes, the two, possibly three of you who are reading this right now. if i have to do this, you should too! do something that scares you. big or small, touch dirt, hold your breath longer than you think you can (but try not to pass out) make friends with a stranger, train for a marathon, give a dollar to that person holding the “homeless with 5 kids” sign. go sky diving, get a tattoo! jump on stage at your favorite concert (i would totally do that at a Glee live show :)) learn a new language, try a new hobby, just do something that scares you!
with all this talk of the end of the world lately, as much as i believe it or not, we have no idea what tomorrow brings so what can it hurt? all that will come of it is a new experience, an answer, and possibly a new view on life. and no matter your beliefs, you will live in, and leave this life being able to show the world that there really is, nothing to be afraid of.
till my next thought.. cheers!